Thoughts of a Diva

Unfortunately, I am failing miserably. Dieting is so much of a mental war for me that I've convinced myself that there's no point. I'm not saying I quit but I have cheated. After doing P2 faithfully for 2 weeks I was down 12-14 lbs (for some reason there was fluctuation) I stalled there the entire third week. There was no change at all. I was hungry, irritable and depressed. So I cheated. Because what's the point in doing all of that suffering for nothing? I felt so bad. I ate bread and I didn't even like it. I felt sick. Being trapped inside of my apartment due to ice and snow didn't help so I ended up eating a few Girl Scout cookies. Bread has never been a vice for me but sweets, cookies, cakes, pies, THOSE are my vices. I didn't go over board but I definitely cheated. Now I don't know what to do. I've disappointed myself and other people. Why can't I be a BIG responder? Why can't I lose 10 lbs in a week's time? Why can't I LOV...

So I took my Nite Lite last night and lost 1 lb. right now I'm at 288.8. I'm excited. This is the confirmation I needed to keep me motivated. We're still iced in so I'm using food I already have. My food plan for today is as follows. Time Omni Product Meal Water 9:00 a.m. Omnidrops     9:15 a.m.   ½ grapefruit 20 oz. 11:00 a.m.     10 oz. 12:00 p.m.     10 oz. 1:00 p.m. Omnidrops     1:20 p.m. Hair & Nails Pill 4 oz. ground turkey patty, 2 oz. lettuce, 2 oz. cherry tomatoes, 1 tbsp spicy mustard 20 oz. 3:00 p.m.     10 oz. 4:00 p.m.   ½ grapefruit 20 oz. 5:00 p.m.     10 oz.   6:00 p.m. Omnidrops     6:30 p.m. Hair & Nails ...

I think I'll participate in lent this year.  I need to practice will power. I plan to give up 3-5 things  in hopes that I'll make it the entire 40 days w/ at least one.  Lent starts Wednesday and right now I'm contemplating letting go of: negativity, Social Media (unless business related), texting,  alcohol, romantic relationships,  television, music recorded  after 1985 (music is the soundtrack of my life so I can't give it up completely), fake hair (I'm natural so that would mean no protective styling) spending money outside of preexisting  bills.... I  have about 12 hours to decide and prep myself.  Are you giving up anything for Lent? If so what?

This is a bigger struggle than I thought. Still stuck at 289 (yep, there's the big reveal. Hoping to self shame myself into doing right)! I struggle between 290 and 299 for years. I would get discouraged when I couldn't break that 10 lb. barrier . I need to recommit myself BIG TIME. I haven't been taking the drops regularly. I'm so inconsistent with routines. That's the Aquarian in me I guess. I'm stalled so I'm discouraged. I wanted to be a major responder to the program and drop about 10 lbs. a week. I'm trying to stay encouraged and hang in there. Tomorrow is the first day of the last week on the VLCD. I'm going to consistently take my drops, my hair & nails pills and my Nite Lite. Pray to the summertime fine Gods that I can drop 10. Anyway - I got sick of chicken during week 1 of P2 so I mixed it up this week. Today I had ground turkey patties and sliced tomatoes for both lunch and dinner today plus an orange, green tea and melba toast. We...

The closure principle is a Gestalt principle of perceptual organization, stating that we see incomplete figures as complete figures, by closing up or ignoring gaps. An example of this is seeing an incomplete circle, but perceiving it as a complete circle despite it having a gap figure. http://www.psychologyconcepts.com/closure-principle/  I came across this site when looking for a picture to illustrate my thoughts. The trouble with things been left undone is ...well...they're undone. It's very hard to move on from relationships that you feel like have not reached closure. It's like an unclosed circle. When it's not finished, when the ends do not meet things can always be put in or taken away from the experience. Sure you can place a covering over the opening in hopes of keeping the good memories in and the insecurities out but there's always something that can come along and rip that covering off and the good and the bad and the true and false will be all...

EEEEEEEEEEEEEK! The weekend was BAD. I may have cheated......just a little though. I haven't gained any weight back but I didn't lose any either. There's a silver lining to me getting off track... I DID NOT GAIN THE WEIGHT BACK. Not one single ounce. So that tells me that when I get to my goal weight maintaining should be easy. I debated starting over again but loading makes me feel so gross I didn't want to re-do it so soon. I made up for it tonight by making taco salad for my kids and only eating my Phase 2 version. No cheese, No sour cream Who knew my willpower was so strong? I will post a pic of it later but I basically had 4 oz. of 93% lean ground beef 1 oz. of onions 1 oz. of lettuce 2 oz. of tomatoes some jalapeños and 2 multigrain wasa crackers It wasn't terrible and I got full after eating half. Still down 7 XOXO Latina Renee

I'm down another 2 lbs. If I lose 1 more lb I'll be at a milestone that I'll share with you when it happens. I'm hoping to look up some recipes and spice up the VLCD (Very Low Calorie Diet) this weekend. If I come across something delicious I'll be sure to share it here. I can control myself at work for the most part even though there's temptation all over the place here. The real victory will be if I manage this weekend. Oh  and my Nite Lite (Omnitrition Nighttime formula) which supposedly helps you rest better and causes you to lose lbs while you sleep came in along with my Omnitrition Hair & Nails. I'm excited to add these to my routine this weekend. I do not believe that I will have to use ALL of the Omni products to lose weight. I will probably try them all because I'm a distributor and I would like to know the products I sell but I'm not in it for the extra cash. If it comes it comes. More importantly I need a jump start. I need to ...

Well it's Day 2 and I've lost 5 lbs! Bye Bye loading troubles. Imagine if I'm as successful the rest of week! Did I mention a cheated. I know, I know that's horrible BUT the job got me cake and ice cream. So I had a bit. But I stuck to my guns the rest of the day and boy was temptation EVERYWHERE. I had George Foreman grilled chicken and raw spinach for both lunch and dinner. Lunch was so bleh. I couldn't eat all of the spinach because I'm not allowed dressing and well that's just inhumane. I've got to look into recipes but when it came down to it I just want to do it already and I did not want to procrastinate under the disguise of looking for recipes. Anyway, thank God for Frank's Red Hot (it is allowed on the diet).  I used it on the chicken AND spinach for dinner and it was quite enjoyable. I've packed it in my Hello Kitty lunchbox since today's menu is the same. I'm allergic to raw apples so last night I warmed an apple with c...

Even though I ate....a lot....a little part of me feels like I didn't load properly because I would still get hungry in between pig outs. But because I feel sick and I've already gained 5 pounds I'm going ahead and starting Phase 2 or P2 (a very low calorie diet) today. In P2, what you can eat is very limited and the meal plan is 500 calories a day. I personally feel like that is waaaaay too few calories and I've been researching ways around that. What I've found is that you can actually do 800 calories a day and still lose weight. It won't be as dramatic as the 500 calorie a day diet but still. So I have the 800 calorie plan in my back pocket just in case. I'm hoping to drop that gained 5 pounds in the first week. P2 lasts for 21 days/ 3 weeks. The meals on this plan are very simple. Last night I prepared 4 very unexciting meals of 4 oz of chicken breast and 4 oz of spinach for both lunch and dinner today and tomorrow. Today I also brought and orange ...

So I'm trying a new weight loss plan. I can admit that it seems a little gimmicky but I've personally with my for reals eyes seen the results of Omnitrtion. It doesn't cost as much as some other plans I've tried so I decided to give it a try. The way the plan is set up you do rounds or cycles. They are 47 days long and are broken down so that the first 2 days you do what is called Phase 1 or P1 (loading). You get to eat whaterver you want and you are encouraged to stuff yourself. That's what I've done the last two days and I literally made myselfe sick. AND I GAINED 5 POUNDS!!!!!!While loading I you're suppose to drink 1/2 to 1 gallon of water a day ( I drank about 80 oz) and take the Omnidrops/Liquid Vitamins 4 times a day. I'm optimistic about this program. The people who introduced it to me really believe in the product and their results made me an offer I couldn't refuse. My next post is about Phase 2. XO XO Latina Renee

    Happy, Happy Birthday TO ME! Today I turned 35 years old. Every year I look at February 1 as the real new year (January is just practice) and I guess that for me it is the new year. I am so excited about what 2015 has in store for me. I really want to write more but my eyelids are HEAVY! I must sleep now but trust practice is over! I will be blogging more 35!? WOW. Can't wait to share it with you guys.